Sunday, December 8, 2013
I know that the quality of this photo of a photo is terrible, but I wanted to share this picture - it's my favorite picture, because it's the only one I have of my whole family. It is my sister Elizabeth's birthday today, and she would have been 10 years old. It seems so strange to think it was that long ago, especially when I remember some of the details of her short life so vividly.
A lot of people don't know that I have a sister, or that she passed away. When I was young, I kept it to myself because the ones who did know treated me differently, and I didn't want that; I didn't want people to feel sorry for me.
It took several years to come to terms with what happened, and I'm ok. My family - we're ok. I don't doubt where she is, I don't wonder about what happened to her. It still hurts to think about losing the opportunity to grow up with a sister in this life, but it gives me a chance to remember the things that I know to be true.
I am so incredibly grateful for the gospel, and for the doctrine that we have. I am grateful that the Lord has provided a way for us to be sealed as a family. For those of you who don't know anything about my religion and what I believe, just know that Family is what matters.
I know that I will get to be with my entire family again someday.
Friday, December 6, 2013
I brought it with me over Thanksgiving to try and get a better understanding of aperture and ISO and all that. I was having the hardest time getting clear pictures, and didn't discover that it was on Manual Focus until the last day. Bah. I felt dumb, but oh well.
I have a lot to learn, about photography and how to care for the camera itself. I enjoyed my mom's camera when I was a teenager, but everything was on auto. I'd like to branch out.
I'm really looking forward to see what I can come up with.
When I went down to SLC for Benn's farewell dinner, the Travellers came to see him off. My "Uncle" was adamant about joining them for Thanksgiving, so I went to their house to spend the holiday with them.
I say "Uncle" because these people are not related to me at all. But, I have known them my entire life - literally - and I think of their kids as my cousins. I see them more often than I see my real cousins, and I am really close with them.
It was a wonderful, yet casual week; we all worked on that crazy puzzle pictured above, we went on some walks, went to the movies, and talked.
I was really grateful to be at home with a family during Thanksgiving, even though it wasn't my own. I guess sometimes it could be strange to think about that, because siblings fight, and people get cranky with each other - It's just how families are.
But still, there is just something about a group of people who know and love you.
Thursday, December 5, 2013
1. "Politics and the English Language" by George Orwell is incredibly relevant to me right now. My favorite part?
"As I have tried to show, modern writing at its worst does not consist in picking out words for the sake of their meaning and inventing images in order to make the meaning clearer. It consists in gumming together long strips of words which have already been set in order by someone else, and making the results presentable by sheer humbug."
2. This recipe for "Paleo Primal Fudge." I don't really follow or care about the Paleo diet, but chocolate? I'm here for that. I made it the other night and it is SO SO GOOD!
3. This article of some guy asking famous authors if symbolism was intentional or not. I thought Ray Bradbury's responses were pretty funny.
4. This article about why we should stop saying "goodbye" at parties gets me. I have always been a fan of the Irish goodbye and I'm glad others agree.
5. Quote brought to you by pinterest. I'm currently trying to work on this and change some things about myself.
6. I don't know why I'm late to the party, but I just discovered Haim like a week or two ago and I love these girls. Days are Gone is a great album - check out "The Wire," "Honey and I," and "Falling."
7. This was an interesting short video about healthy eating and why it's relative. This is especially interesting because I decided I need to get a better handle on PCOS and start eating well again, which means I'm cutting out gluten and dairy, when I can. Dairy is easier though because I don't like it all that much.
8. We started reading Franny and Zooey in Absurdist Hero and I'm about a 2/3rds of the way through. I don't know how I feel about it yet, but I know that the way Zooey treats his mom is appalling.
9. I LOVED this short, yet powerful video about our relationship between each other and our phones. It reminds me to be mindful and intentional about how I use my phone.
So I'm going to catch up on things like Thanksgiving and some other stuff I've been up to. Maybe I can get to that tomorrow.
Thursday, November 21, 2013
1. I've unofficially taken Chris's camera, and this was a nice tutorial. I need to go over this some more and practice.
2. Applause to this mom for having Real Talk with her son and teaching him about his problematic behavior.
3. It was really interesting reading about Passion Pit frontman, Michael Angelakos, and how he's decided to be open about his struggles and triumphs with Bi-polar disorder. I love this guy.
4. This is stunning. Just click. Pictures of remote tribes taken before they've all passed away.
5. Stolen from Pinterest - 5 rules for happiness.
6. "Babel" by Mumford is always a good fall soundtrack.
7. This was an interesting read about why some Swedish prisons are being shut down.
8. THIS SONG Y'ALL. Lorde covered Tears for Fears' "Everybody Wants to Rule the World" and wowowow.
9. Branches released a new song the other day and it's cute. They're offering it as a free download - go, go!
Tuesday, November 19, 2013
Ok this is kind of dumb, but there was this thing going around on fb the other day and I had to try it out.
It takes all of your past status updates and comments on facebook, and generates it into some new phrase that you would probably say. I got some pretty funny ones.
Thursday, November 14, 2013
I gave myself the week off last thursday because it was my birthday and I can.
1. This video about Mama Hill's story. She is an incredible woman, and we need more people like her.
2. Derrick - Brianne and I saw this guy play earlier this year, which I wrote about here. Listen to "Unrelenting" - it is so wonderful.
3. Rookie Mag's "Getting Over Girl Hate" article. This is only an idea I've just realized, but it's true, we're really competitive and hard on each other. I've tried to be more mindful of this as I've learned more.
4. A Finger, Two Dots, Then Me - I don't know if this is "slam" poetry, but just watch it anyways.
5. "I think happiness is what makes you pretty. Period. Happy people are beautiful. They become like a mirror and reflect that happiness." - Drew Barrymore
6. The Lumineers eponymous album - I really like "Flowers in Your Hair," "Stubborn Love," and "Big Parade."
7. This article about Philippine relief efforts was really interesting and thought provoking.
8. We've been reading in "Nine Stories" for Absurdist Hero and it's...interesting. Many of them are just weird, so I like our discussions in class allow me to understand a bit better.
9. "Single and Not Waiting" was a rather relevant article to read this week. There's been this strange potential relationship...thing...that's been going on for a major part of the semester, and this past week I decided that I'm tired of waiting around for this guy to make a move or decide that I'm worth his time. Usually this stuff bums me out, but this time it was a huge relief when I decided that. I feel like I can breathe again, not worrying about what he thinks. In the meantime, I'm just working on me and continuing to do what I love to do.